I have been trying to slow down and take time to notice all the little things around me. If I were to go blind tomorrow what would I miss seeing? Or if I were to go deaf in a week what would I miss hearing? I know for a fact that I take alot for granted in my life. That there are the obvious people or things that I would miss. But the ever so subtle fancies I have need to be announced or recognized as well. I know I have written about this before but I have found myself in the same situation where life seems to take over and you forget to take a step back and notice everything. The smell, the sight, the feel, the emotion of everyday living.
Particular Smells:
The smell of our yard after Sean has cut the grass.
The way the bathroom smells after someone takes a shower.
When the dryer is on and the kitchen smells like warm cotton.
The way my pillow cases smell like shampoo from countless nights of falling asleep with wet hair.
The Puppy's smell after he has a bath and smells like a woman. Boy I did him wrong.
When my brother goes to work and sprays "Curve" on before he leaves. The only time I ever see him use it.
The smell of clothes when you hang them to dry.
Vanilla lipsmacker.
The man you love.
The smell of white tea or vanilla tea.
The way the kitchen smells when you are making Mexican wedding cookies.
The smell of warm tequila.
A baby right after a bath.
Leather that has been sitting in the sun for hours.
The smell of a horses nose.
The smell that a old car leaves behind when it takes off.
Gasoline.
La Abeja.
Dodger Stadium (Go Giants)
The smell of the ocean.
The way meat smells when it's cooking on a BBQ.
A brand new note book.
Disneyland.
The detergent aisle at the market.
The smell of the country or the farm.
Red wine.
Menudo, Chorizo and Eggs.
Particular Visions:
I’d miss being able to see my family's faces when I actually show up at a family function.
The way my Mom looks when she's talking about us AKA her kids.
The Puppy all curled up under the covers in the morning.
My co-worker Brian under his desk making an info tape.
A man’s arms wrapped around you in bed.
All the baby cousins and how they change each time you see them.
Little kids playing in the ocean.
The way fingers move across guitar strings.
People eating pancakes.
Pictures of my Dad.
Old people holding hands.
The park when its completely full of kids playing.
Boys surfing.
My brothers sitting at a table talking with each other.
Nini cooking Mexican food.
Horses running as fast as they can.
Co-workers freaking out at work.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
2-22-2010

I have come to the realization that there is nothing some good music cant cure. After feeling a little jolted this weekend I forced myself to go to Best Buy and purchased some tunes. I feel confident in saying that I have officially bought my first Jay-Z CD. I am also coming around with this whole Kings of Leon fix that everyone is dying for. But even still Im a little hestitant to enjoy their vocals. A little too winey for me. But Im giving it some time. I bought a Polyphonic Spree CD once and hated it. I listened to it again about 5 years later and loved it. My new love for them also made me buy tickets to see them at the El Rey and to this day that's one of the best shows Ive ever been to. I find that even in the world of music it all happens for a reason. I also found it funny that when I told my friend that I had bought some CDs he responded with "You bought CDs? Who buys CDs anymore? We have itunes now." As time goes on I start to feel more and more like one of those old ladies who doesnt understand modern day technology. I cant grasp 3D game systems and anytime Ive owned a ipod I give it away at some point because I prefer CDs. Stick with what you know is what I like to say.
Short but Sincerly written
Annie
Short but Sincerly written
Annie
Sunday, February 14, 2010
2-14-2010
I think its safe to say that we all have our moments when we stop and ask ourselves certain questions that make us question our motives. I have found this to be true most recently with certain people in my life. I always want to find and see the good in people. Even after they have made me doubt them. I want to give people that second chance and feel like I wasn't a fool for believing in them. There is too much negative energy out there for me to just contribute to it so easily. But sometimes it cant be helped. There are those people that no matter how much you want them to prove you wrong they end up breaking you down. I have found this to be true on many levels of friendships. But sometimes I feel like I let people and my opinion on them intrude on my own well being. I just so badly want to see the positive in everyone but it can be so hard and such a let down. Especially when it's someone you truly care about. I have reached a point where I am not so easily handing out the "Get Out Of Jail Free" card. I will never be the type of person who holds grudges. But I do feel like I have grown a thicker skin and protect myself a little better from potential pain. I can pinpoint certain events that have happened that make me feel this way. I'm still confused on this new found change and if its a good thing or a bad thing. I want to be open to everything but with age I find myself becoming more guarded and even cynical. This is a work in progress and I'm still working it over in my own head.
It's not all bad Debbie downer says...I find that you can have some of the most precious moments with animals. When people let you down its rare that a animal will do the same. Unless of course you leave them at your Mom's house for 2 weeks where he is being fed nothing but MEAT and realizes the change in his diet and decides to pee on your bed just to piss you off. Little bastard. But back to precious moments...I was lucky enough to go horseback riding today. Ive been riding and jumping horses since I was a kid but have not been on a horse for years. When I was walking through the stables the smell wrapped around me and reminded me of so many cherished memories and laughs. But while I was waiting to be reunited with the horses I found myself getting nervous. How I am now a 24 year old grown up woman and I'm nervous to get on a horse that could probably walk the trail blind folded and not have a slip up. When I was younger I would ride, saddle up and jump horses that were far too large for me and not once did I ever have fear towards them. We would do exercises with our horses where we would have to let go of the reins and completely lay flat on our backs and let the horse continue to walk. It was a trust exercise between you and your horse. When I was riding today I was reminded of how much you trust that animal for the time you are on it's back. And how much they trust to have you on their back. It's a very special relationship you develop with a horse that you ride and especially when it's one you compete with. It was nice to revisit that feeling today.
Signing off with a sore ass, glass of wine and curiosity
A
It's not all bad Debbie downer says...I find that you can have some of the most precious moments with animals. When people let you down its rare that a animal will do the same. Unless of course you leave them at your Mom's house for 2 weeks where he is being fed nothing but MEAT and realizes the change in his diet and decides to pee on your bed just to piss you off. Little bastard. But back to precious moments...I was lucky enough to go horseback riding today. Ive been riding and jumping horses since I was a kid but have not been on a horse for years. When I was walking through the stables the smell wrapped around me and reminded me of so many cherished memories and laughs. But while I was waiting to be reunited with the horses I found myself getting nervous. How I am now a 24 year old grown up woman and I'm nervous to get on a horse that could probably walk the trail blind folded and not have a slip up. When I was younger I would ride, saddle up and jump horses that were far too large for me and not once did I ever have fear towards them. We would do exercises with our horses where we would have to let go of the reins and completely lay flat on our backs and let the horse continue to walk. It was a trust exercise between you and your horse. When I was riding today I was reminded of how much you trust that animal for the time you are on it's back. And how much they trust to have you on their back. It's a very special relationship you develop with a horse that you ride and especially when it's one you compete with. It was nice to revisit that feeling today.
Signing off with a sore ass, glass of wine and curiosity
A
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
2-2-2010
Hello Sweet Friends and Lovers...
I trust that the people who will be reading this will already have the knowledge of my interest in writing. I had been writing a (daily turned into weekly turned into monthly turned into whenever the time was available) blog. When people have asked me what my writing is based on the only response Ive been able to come up with is observations. Observations on many levels I suppose. I so often find myself walking, driving or watching people or situations being played out where I have so many thoughts and opinions. I confess that I'm not always great at explaining how I feel but have found a certain comfort in writing what I feel. No matter how minuscule or magnanimous it may be. I guess its all in the opinion of the writer which may very much differ from the reader. But my goal is to be honest in whatever banter comes out.
Stay Tuned
Annie
I trust that the people who will be reading this will already have the knowledge of my interest in writing. I had been writing a (daily turned into weekly turned into monthly turned into whenever the time was available) blog. When people have asked me what my writing is based on the only response Ive been able to come up with is observations. Observations on many levels I suppose. I so often find myself walking, driving or watching people or situations being played out where I have so many thoughts and opinions. I confess that I'm not always great at explaining how I feel but have found a certain comfort in writing what I feel. No matter how minuscule or magnanimous it may be. I guess its all in the opinion of the writer which may very much differ from the reader. But my goal is to be honest in whatever banter comes out.
Stay Tuned
Annie
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